I know training will continue through the summer but if I want to become an Asain soccer star playing professional soccer i’ll need to be focused and commited.

The problem is the hot weather will make it hard not to go to the pool with my mates and train instead.

I have a choice and have to make a decision and take responsibility for my decision.

But the really big decision is whether I should stay with my current club, playing in the premier divison of the Sunday Youth League or concentrate on training and getting ready for trials.

I would love to do both, but i’m not sure I can. I’ll have to make a commitment to one or the other.

I’m happy at my current club even though i’ve only been there for one season – and was the highest goal scorer – even though I was out with a broken collar bone for four months.

And that is the problem with playing in the Sunday Youth League… injuries. I know talented players who have missed out on trials because they got injured playing Sunday youth league matches.

Next season is going  to be critical, and with the intensive training the risk of injury will be pretty high. Especially with teams who are just out to win silverware, no matter what it takes.

I know my dad has already made the decision, but i’m not sure what it is. He wants me to start making decisions both on and off the pitch, and take responsibility for them.

Any comments to help me make the decision will be very welcome.

He said “be your own messiah” but I didn’t understand what he meant, then he said it in language that I could understand “be your own soccer coach”. I could understand the meaning of the words, but couldn’t fully understand the concept.

Over the year, every time I needed a bit of a kick in the backside to get going he would say little things that would motivate me, and my attitude would change in a second.

This morning I woke up and bang! It hit me, “be your own soccer coach”.

I knew exactly what he meant. If I want to be an Asian soccer star playing professional soccer I had to take responsibility for my attitude, my training, my nutrition and everything else connected with reaching my goal. I had to push myself and learn everything I could even when I didn’t feel like it.

I had made the commitment, now it was time to take responsibility, just like dad had done and just like a coach has to do.